Tagged along with my buddy Khedra of Khaptures during a session at the park. At the end of the session, my son was jumping on some benches. Being a boy. He said that he wondered if I could. "I bet I can!" I put down my cam, my key, my shades, my phone and proceeded to jump up on one of the benches. There were two rows of them. Jumping from bench to bench in one row wasn't a big deal. The problem came when it was time for me to jump from one ROW to the other. "Ummm..." LOL! He made it look so easy!
I couldn't go through with it. I imagined slipping the second my foot landed on the other side, and BAM! There goes my back! How could I continue with my photography career if I can't walk?? How can I walk down the isle if I can't walk?! So, Khedra gives it a try. First go 'round she understood my fear. "It looks scary from up there, right?" She agreed. Low and behold she jumped! Like 3 times! :O Ms. Tiffany watched. She thought I was a scardy cat until she got up to jump. LOL! My son, being the AWESOME guy that he is decide to offer some encouragement and a pep talk...and threw in a hug.
This was turning into a MUCH bigger deal that I anticipated. I jumped, but didn't go all the way across. I did that several times as my son went back to jumping.
Khedra offered to jump with me. No good. I couldn't. Fear had gotten the best of me. "I should have just done it the first time I tried." I finally admitted, "I'm afraid." LOL! We laughed. Khedra encouraged me to jump across just once. I repeated, "I'm afraid." Tiffany watched. Isaiah was in his own 3-year-old world. Singing. Dancing. HE couldn't jump because his legs were too short. I wanted to use that excuse but my baby was jumping. He's at least a head shorter than I am. DANG! I couldn't. I just couldn't. I came to terms with it and just laid down on the bench. Khedra took this picture.
She called it "Shoes of Shame". ROFL! I didn't care. I wasn't going to throw away my career and my chance at WALKing down the isle. How can my husband find/recognize me if I can't walk? He'd have to be the surgeon that performs the surgery on my back and get to know me and discover how awesome I am during my recovery. I can't let THAT happen. True it would mean that my husband would be some brilliant, talented, filthy rich surgeon and we'd have a wonderfully touching story to share during the reception, but no. So, you see, it was best that I didn't jump. Don't you agree?
Before we got too far away I took a picture of those BLASTED benches. One last look.
- Ke
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